This has been bothering me all day. And I had to write it…
So here is a little behind the scenes look at what happened when Jess left the grocery store….Oh and just as a warning, this is a spoiler, so if you would rather not know until Edward & Bella know…don’t read this yet…
Jessica’s POV
Why the fuck did I go into that store, I never shop there. I always go to the discount grocer by my apartment in the Beacon Hill area. The only reason I was in that part of town was because of the stupid doctor’s appointment I had taken the afternoon off for. All I wanted to do was fill my prescription, get a box of tampons and maybe pick up a pint of chocolate-chocolate chip Häagen-Dazs. After all it was Friday night, my period was due to start and I had absolutely no where to go. So I might as well down my sorrows in ice cream and horror movies.
I saw Edward in the personal care area; he was in the next aisle over looking at the body wash. I thought about approaching him to ask for his help. Last week I had gotten a certified letter from New Moon, saying that I had assaulted someone on the premises and because of that I wasn’t allowed on the property anymore. When I called Mike to tell him about it he didn’t answer and by the time the weekend came around I went to their apartment.
Mike had practically kicked me out saying that he had been suspended because of me. When I asked him what he was talking about he told me to leave and not come back for a while because Karen wasn’t feeling well.
Well no shit Dick Tracy.
It didn’t take a fucking genius to figure out that something was wrong with her. The last time I had seen her was the week before and all she did was sleep, cry and babble on and on about how much it hurt. Mike would try to hold her and she would practically scream and beg him not to put her in the cage.
I had no fucking idea what the loon was talking about because I’ve spent a lot of time with them and have never seen any cage. When Karen was coherent all she talked about was her kid EJ and the Bella. Just who I wanted to fucking hear about. I wouldn’t give a flying shit if that bitch fell off the face of the earth. Ever since she came into my life there has been nothing but problems and grief.
That little whore was one of the reasons I agreed to go to Edward’s house for Mike. The whole week leading up that night all I heard about was how she had moved in to his house. How the fuck did that happen so quickly?
It just seemed like a few weeks ago I was a standard plaything in Edward’s basement. It wasn’t a weekly thing or even a regular appointment but he would call me from time to time or we would just go to his house from the club. Then she came and I was thrown out like a piece a trash, abandoned to a world of nothingness. At least Mike and Karen seemed to want me around more and that helped a little as long as I didn’t have to see the mealy mouse bitch too often.
Which I didn’t but that also meant I didn’t get to see Edward either and he didn’t get to see me. That was
what I needed him to do – see me.
Then he would remember how well we had been together and how much better of a sub I was then her. I had to be better; everyone said she was newbe who just showed up at the Open Door Night. They say she was friend of Aro’s so they sat her in the VIP section – a place I wasn’t allowed to enter and somehow or another she weaseled her way into Edward’s life.
At first I wasn’t too worried, Edward’s always played with others but I knew that eventually he would see me for what I was. Then all of a sudden I heard that the slut had somehow conned her way into having him take her as his sub. The next week Edward brings her in wearing a collar – no not a collar – His Collar- that should have been on my neck. He was laughing, dancing and holding her like he was in love or something.
The display was nauseating.
I tried to show Edward what kind of sub his precious whore was how she disobeyed the simplest order and talked to me when he told her not to. Not only talked to me but called me a bitch and said she didn’t care about me. Telling me that I had better have a good memory because I would never be with Edward again – no she called him her Master.
Well, we’ll just have to see about that won’t we?
Rose went off on me, but I didn’t care about that knocked up bitch, she could kiss my ass. That little rant from the bitch troll was exactly what I needed. As soon as I came out of the bathroom I went right up to Emmett and told him that I had to see Edward, because he had to know the horrible things she had said to me.
It was the first time I was ever in the office and it didn’t help that Edward was yelling at Caius about his talking to the bitch. Like she was either too good for Caius to speak to or too fragile and couldn’t handle a simple conversation. Then Edward asked why I was there and I told him the truth “I was attacked in the bathroom”
“By Isabella?” Even Aro seemed mad about it and when I looked at Jane she narrowed her eyes at me and that was first time I was actually afraid to be in that room. But I told them all anyway “Yes. She was very rude to me.”
She was scared approaching Edward and I felt really happy about that because he could finally see how she was. Mean, disobedient and rude. Edward wasn’t happy with her at all.
Good!
Served her right if Edward stripped that collar right off her neck in front of everybody.
But then something went wrong, Caius was leaving after Aro basically told him that if he talked to the bitch one more time he was going to be kicked out of the club. Then he turned on me and between his tone of voice and Jane’s evil glare I was scared shitless and very glad when they left.
What is wrong with these people?
Edward asked her if she spoke to me and the bitch lied – right to his face. So I called her out “Lair”
But instead of looking at me Edward kept his eyes locked on the witch while I told him all that she had said to me. Then he asked her again “Are you telling me that Jessica is making all that up?”
At least the little wench had the nerve to tell the truth “No Master.”
See Edward…see how she is?
He accused her of lying and disobeying him and she had the nerve to stand there and lie again. Then she started telling him how she was talking with prego and I was eavesdropping on their private conversation. Worse yet, Edward was buying that load of bullshit and he started talking about sametics. Well I wasn’t going to let her get away with it.
“She called me a bitch Edward.”
I wanted him to do something about that, stand up for me, make her apologize to me and for a moment it was there, the look. The one that made my knees weak and my heart skip a little bit faster.
Yes Edward, yes…
And then he looked back at her
No Edward, no look at me…
But he never did, he never took his eyes off the bitch again and he dismissed me like yesterday’s dessert. His parting words to me were “Jess you can go back out to Mike, tell him that if he has a problem with what happened I’ll be here another fifteen minutes so he can come talk to me on his break.”
I wanted to hurt him like he had hurt me and I told him “Don’t worry Edward I will”
But it didn’t hurt him, he didn’t care because he had her and I had no one.
So there I was standing in the store debating with myself if I should talk to Edward or not. I didn’t want to be pushed away again like I was nothing, still I had to try. Because if I couldn’t go to New Moon what I was supposed to do? So I followed him over to where his cart was, standing on the end of the aisle listening while the whiney little wench carried on about fruity pebbles.
Really bitch grow the fuck up
When she left it was my chance because if anyone could help me it was Edward and I knew after everything we meant to each other, he would help me. But I was wrong; he wasn’t going to help me. At first he said he couldn’t but then I made the mistake of getting angry. I started talking about how much things have changed since the bitch came and I made my mistake. I mentioned the dog – that stupid loud flea bitten mutt that nearly
bit me.
That was when she returned, and I saw…I saw something that I had never thought I’d ever see. Edward called her babe, wrapped his arm around her and kissed her head like she was his girlfriend, not just his fuck buddy but someone…special.
I had to get out of there, it hurt too much to watch, and before I could leave Edward said that he couldn’t talk to Aro but he could talk to the police.
The police?
He wouldn’t call the police; I didn’t hurt anything I only agreed so I could know the truth. Mike wanted me to put that collar with the listening thing in it there so he would know what they said. I thought that while he did that I could listen in too and then I would know what was happening. That way I would know the truth and maybe something would be said that I could use to try and break them up. But it wasn’t going to work and the more I told Edward about what I knew the more I hoped he could see I didn’t mean any harm. I just wanted to be close to him and besides after all we had together, shouldn’t that count for something?
Edward said we were friends; we were much more than friends and I was counting on that meaning something. I didn’t think what I did was so wrong and I never thought that Edward would turn me into the police. In fact Mike didn’t think he would either. When I asked Mike what I should do if I got caught he told me to laugh like it was all a big prank and Edward would see it that way - funny.
Edward didn’t see it as funny; in fact he was dead serious when he told me that I had an hour to hire an attorney. On my way home I stopped by the bank, my two weeks’ paycheck had just been deposited and I had my rent money that was due to be paid still in the account.
Withdrawing every cent, I headed back to my apartment, threw as much stuff into the two suitcases as would fit and the rest went into garbage bags. I didn’t know how much time I had before the police came and I didn’t know what they would do to me. One thing I did know I wasn’t sticking around to find out, there was nothing left for me in Seattle and I only had one place to go.
Picking up my phone I listened while it rang once, twice, three times until the familiar voice on the other end said “Hello”
“Grand? I’m coming home”
A/N
Now you know what happened to Jess after she left the store…
So do you have a better understanding of the workings of Jess’s mind and all of you that said she was just playing dumb…do you still that??
Oh and I know I spelled semantics - sametic’s… it was done on purpose… because Jess doesn’t know the meaning of the word, so it would stand to reason she couldn’t pronounce it either…lol… I know I shouldn’t pick on the intellectually challenged..but it’s so much fun…lol….
